Okay.
So I think I have insomnia AGAIN because I woke up for no apparent reason at one in the freaking AM. I thought this was just a temporary stress-induced phase but apparently its permanent.
I wish I had something substantial to blog about but all the things I can think of are too complicated for me to tap out at two thirty in the morning. Plus I have to be sleeping by 3AM. I have weird phobias.
Things started falling into place today pretty fast. First thing being that I'M GOING TO JOHN MAYER IN SEPTEMBER! Yayy =)
Second thing being that Time Is Running Out, Summer is Almost Over, and So Are We.
Tonight felt like a night from the tenth grade, before TAMS started and before my personality started evaporating lol. Old friends, old habits, old fears. Lying upside down on the bed, texting for so long that not just my fingers, but my whole arm started cramping. I had the same conversations that I had two years ago. 'When I leave, will it stay the same for us?'
Two years ago I was naive enough to believe it would. Time and distance are undeniable though. It never stays the same, but the fact that I'm here, two years later, grasping at the same straws is a clear testament to change being irrelevant to the fundamentals.
So I lied in my last post. I didn't want to put it all up there on his birthday.
What a birthday.
Eleven fifty eight is when the phone started ringing and it didn't stop until well after 12:10. Whats the point of me being there, being the one sitting next to you, holding your free hand? Your attention is on the fifteen other people on the phone anyway.
One day I'm seriously going to break that phone. I don't care if I'm going to hell for it.
