Did You Miss Me While You Were Looking For Yourself? Yeah, I Didn't Really Think So...Oh Well

I actually like this version a LOT better than the original.

I'm writing this post for one person in particular and a lot of people in general. =)

There are a lot of times where I start a blog post talking and thinking about something specific. Its usually something emotional or my current social crisis. I know what I want to write about, I know what music fits the mood, I know. So I start tapping it out.
Theres an expiration on even emotion though. Halfway through my angry rant I'll instantaneously calm down and reread all the crap I wrote and laugh.
Does that ever happen with you? Do you ever get into something and then halfway through realize its not worth it and go 'wayytt JAYKAY, I don't have time for this'

So I wonder if that can happen with people too. Can you get into someone and then halfway to their heart realize that its not worth it and just bail?
I cant, can you? (not that I'm judging)

But to me, thats one of the benchmarks for having a soul. When you're friends you're not supposed to just bail when one awkward thing happens. let me repeat for emphasis. WHEN YOU'RE (really) FRIENDS, YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO JUST (be a weakass and) BAIL WHEN ONE AWKWARD THING (that YOU said to ME) HAPPENS (and then act like you dont care anymore).

I honestly don't know what is STUPIDER, losing someone that flaky, or genuinely feeling CRAPPY about it. Who am i kidding? You are amazing, I just secretly wish you weren't.

Can you imagine no best friend always looking out for you, even when I know you're wrong, freeze dried romance, five hour phone conversations and me?